Mama

I’ve had days where I felt so sad and drained and the tears wouldn’t stop, my pity party for one. 

Days of not feeling I could get out of bed in the morning, not wanting to. 

Watching you struggling to cope, day in day out. I couldn’t bear it, it hurt too much. 

I’ve been deflated, frustrated, intoxicated and medicated..

…but with the lowest lows can come the highest highs. 

You have inspired me to lose all my self-conscious inhibitions. Let them stare. 

I’d always shy away from confrontation in the past, yet now I am tenacious in my quest to get what you need and deserve. 

That overwhelming high I get to feel when you achieve anything, however small, is euphoric.  

Hearing you say “mama” for the first time at age 6 was nothing short of a miracle. 

I’ve found my therapy in running. I can run off anxiety and stress and feel amazing after it. A total shift in mindset. 

You’re teaching me so much about the world and about myself. 

I was not chosen to be your mum because I am strong, being your mum has made me strong.

I am a better person because of you ❤️